January 31, 2005

and to those who will still be there after the dust settles, i thank you


January 30, 2005

Am craving Korean soft tofu and bulgogi right now.

I don't even know if I spelled that right.

I've been so wrapped up in myself and my little issues lately that I've been kind of blowing off school. Yes, I'm graduating soon but I need to pass these classes first.

Just need to remind myself of that every once in a while.


January 29, 2005

Split personality disorder

Perhaps if Sybil drank more she wouldn't have split into those seventeen selves.

Except I think the initial split was at the age of four and I'm sure that alcohol at the age of four can't be good.

My point is, I think alcohol brings out our repressed sides. I'm normally not an outwardly aggressive person (at least not until recently) but oftentimes when I drink I turn into a pissed-off, swearing mess saying all of the things that run through my head but never quite make it out of my mouth. A roommate, normally relatively upbeat, cries when she's drunk. Another roommate also lets her repressed side come through...haha.

Anyway, I don't think we're going to be seeing any of that for a while. I am slowly but surely learning to drink in moderation. No more waking up off-balance and hungover which I think has happened three or four times in the past month or so. At least not for a while. My liver has had enough.


Car Post!

OMEGA THANKS TO IRV AND DAMON FOR POPPING OUT THE DENT IN MY BUMPER! You guys are the bizzzz-est (thanks for the coffee Irv) and yes, you deserve all four of those z's. Go here for a photo of the end result. It's too bad we forgot to take a "before" photo but let me assure you that it looks a million times better than it did before.

Anyway, after they worked their ghetto magic on my stock silver bullet rice rocket sedan we hit up Fry's and Croc Cafe (got to ride in Irv's xB since they didn't let me drive for obvious reasons) and I swear every mail truck I see will be a painful reminder of my fantastic driving.

Yesterday was Japanese food, fondue, and beer with some good people. There are photos. Some of which certain people will regret being in. An account of last night will come (much) later.


January 27, 2005

So I got evaluated today...and as soon as the session was over one of my tutees looked over at the mentor that was observing me and said "Good, huh?" which is interesting because he's the one who always looks like he's about to pass out about 20 minutes into the session.

So how are you doing today?


January 26, 2005

feeling far too alone right now


random

DD: I saw your friend there. And then I stabbed her.

Me: Really? Which friend?

DD: The one with the stab wound.


LAS VEGAS PT II part one :D

Las Vegas Part II December 17, 2004

The drive - the hotel


ray's sexy elbow =0


i'd tell why this is significant but it never happened


dainty huntz


elevator at luxor


and it begins with andy and steve


girls photo on the guys bed =0


high class ghetto


april is a single (not) black female addicted to retail


breaking in maria's shoes....*ahem*


steve big pimpin' it


stupid waitress cut off steph :(


i beat huntz at the sugar game :D


little bit of gambling before going back to the room

So THIS time I got picked up at my place by Skim in Ray's Jetta. As usual they stuck me in the middle, this time between Steph and Ray. Huntz got shotgun ("gunshot") and Steve drove because Steve's an awesome driver like that.

Aside from the fact that I was stuck in between two people who thought it would be funny to tickle me it was a good drive up. We got Ray to say words like "panties" and "booty" and "elbow".

Somewhere on the way to Vegas we stopped to get food at In n Out. Christy gave me a call when we were eating and I believe my dad had called me as well...something about getting something from the university bookstore or something. Right on.

I really don't remember what time we got there, but we waited around so we could meet up with Aaron, Andy, April and Maria (birthday girl!), got ourselves checked in, discovered that there was no fridge, filled the sink with ice to chill our booze, and then headed back down to go eat. Aaron lost the ICE COLD pin that Huntz made him and drew things on Andy's back with his finger in a very un-homosexual fashion. Huntz beat me in the sugar game and I had to down a packet of that funky sugar in the raw stuff--but then I beat him and he had to do the same :D We also did a lot of portrait-sketching and Huntz (the graphics major of all people) made me look completely deformed. Punk.

We headed out to the casino floor because some of us have gambling problems, but the girls left shortly afterward so we could go upstairs, chill, and get ready to head out to the club.

And yes I realize that this is a bit short but the rest will come later. So chill.


January 25, 2005

Was just thinking about how strange it was to be sitting in an IS300 full of car enthusiasts when the only thing I seem to know about cars is how to wreck them.

Aaron offered up the keys to his new BMW and I hope it was with the knowledge that I would say no because if he seriously thought that I might say yes I would seriously question his sanity.

My life has turned upside-down in a matter of weeks. I feel like I'm in a time warp (a slightly offset time warp) except I'm a little older and perhaps even a little wiser. Everything is coming back to me as a result of my newfound free time, everyone's newfound singleness (99 billion breakups and counting), random phone call from a lost friend to an old friend, drunk dialing (which was perhaps a good thing) and IMing (sorry sorry sorry to all of you), and a million other bizarre happenings.

Hm. Get your mind around that. I'm still having trouble.


January 24, 2005

so i walk into the bathroom at el cholos and clock a little girl in the head with the door.

right.


Happy birthday to both Irv (quarter of a century old!) and Chris (still not in his twenties!) whose birthdays were yesterday.


January 22, 2005

One more...

This thing is becoming a ridiculously public outlet for my everything. Anyway...

I think I know why they say you need to love yourself before you love someone else. It sounds so ridiculously cheesy and cliché but it's so true. Maybe that's where the big problems started. A lot of the time I didn't think that I deserved to be happy and sometimes I still don't think I do. And sometimes I really feel like it's just not going to happen for me. And right now I really don't know.

Things will work out how they work out and I'll just have to deal with it.

*hahahah sar i can't believe you're the only one who commented on that...


...

waiting for things to get back to normal


January 21, 2005

Car stuff

I'm sure the people who circle the parking lot hate me. They're following me around, waiting for me to leave so they can have my spot, while in the meantime I'm walking up and down and back and forth between all of the aisles because I can't seem to remember where the hell I parked my car.

Speaking of cars, lil Skim noted how ironic it was that we had driven hundreds of miles in my car over the weekend and came out unscathed, but the minute I pull out of my carport to go to school (a one mile trip) I hit another car. And yes, it did seem ironic until I realized that for all of those hundreds of miles we put on the car, I probably only drove about 15 of them AND NOW WE KNOW WHY RIGHT GUYS???

Club Naga is a really nice place. It overlooks the water. More on that later.


January 20, 2005

this is for you damon

now go back to work


Full circle?

The weather is really unusually warm which is nice but strange it doesn't even feel like January which almost makes sense to me right now because everything is so twisted now and even as I feel everything is slowing down and falling into place everything is falling back into random places and the part of my life I thought was closed has now been opened and life as I knew it is now coming to an end although it hasn't really sunk in yet. It's like I'm in some other dimension living life not as myself but in a place where everyone has three eyes and I only have two or something.

My thoughts are all mixed up and sometimes I feel like crying but I can't and it hurts. And somehow I have to carry on as before because the world isn't going to stop and wait for me to finish tying my shoe.


January 19, 2005

Aftermath

Two girls, two breakups in two weeks, one bottle of vodka (Stoli Elit) that's twice as expensive as Grey Goose. My poor Xinlei woke up in the AM to throw up and I sat with her and tied back her hair because that is what April did for me when I drank with her after her breakup.

I feel kind of numb right now. I look like shit because I was crying a little last night and I'm puffy. Plus I didn't get much sleep.

I want you to know that I still care a lot about you and it kills me to know that you're hurting so much. That wasn't my intention. I want you in my life but I understand if you can't see me right now. I've learned a lot from you over the past two and a half years and I don't regret it at all. It was time well spent.

And to those who have been backing me and supporting me all this time, you have no idea what it means to me. My roommates were incredible last night and so were all the people that I was drunkenly talking to on the phone (sorry about that...) And I'm really, really sorry about all of the drunk instant messages...I probably shouldn't have done that. I think I messaged someone I don't even know which is just GREAT.

Yesterday = worst day EVER. And now I'm hung over. Let the healing process begin.


January 18, 2005

BLAHHH

Okay so I just hit a mail truck and the thing is I SAW THE MAIL TRUCK WHEN I WAS WALKING OUT OF THE APARTMENT and thought to myself "Okay don't hit the mail truck don't hit the mail truck" but my head is so messed up right now and going in about fifteen different directions and I can't talk or think straight and I hit the fucking truck.

Dammit. One more parked car.

Today just needs to end.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEENER


MLK

So it's been a long crazy weekend starting Friday ending here and now in Newport Beach at five AM and it seems so short yet so long what with all of the driving and activity and the new people and the old people and the old people that are still new people but are still old people, my little alcohol problem (drinking only makes things seem like they've been solved), the late hours, the change in location, the city, the cold weather, the big empty house. It's so late right now and I don't know if I left more or less confused but I know that I got a much needed and much deserved break from the reality that I've been living but here I am again and it's time to crack down. I was just lucky to have spent the weekend with good people having good times. Thanks to Steve for driving both ways (!) and to Brian and Gina for giving us places to stay (Steve tell your sister sorry that I was acting so strangely I was probably dropped on my head when I was younger or something to that effect). I feel tired and stressed but somehow refreshed.

Here we go again.

(pictures later)


January 14, 2005

In class

I'm in class right now. Mada mada is playing cell phone games. David is passing me notes old school style. Lam[e]dit is watching Mada. And now Bryan is ignoring lecture as well. And I am blogging. Omega cool.


January 13, 2005

I don't think that any of us are really going to be happy with where we are. When we're in one place, we want to be elsewhere. You're in school, you want to graduate. You're working, you want to go back to school. First we complain about being too busy and then when it dies down we complain about being bored. We don't want to be single, but once we have someone we want out.

I think you really need to have been in and out of a serious relationship to really appreciate being single. You need to have been in and out of a relationship with a crappy significant other to appreciate the good person that comes later.

At this point, I really don't know what it is that I want. All I know is that I need to take a step back and get a good, hard look at where I am at and how I feel. What I know for sure is that the past two and a half years have been a learning experience and anything but a waste of my time. It's helped me figure out what I look for in a person, it's helped me grow up a little. I know now that 1 year is not that long and maybe even two years is not long enough to figure out what kind of couple you are.

Normally I don't get so personal on this thing...especially as of late. But this is important to me and I want you to know where I am right now.

*christy...maybe my dress is half off right now but maybe i'll just be topless for a while? it'll help ease me into being a nudist. thanks for the talk dear :)


Dinner

One thing I forgot to mention about last week...Tin and Lam cooked me dinner on Wednesday after class.

I swear I'm moving to Utah and marrying both of them.

I got a random cramp in my calf last night. It was gross. I could feel my muscle (I didn't know I even had any) moving and bulging independently of anything I was telling it to do. Plus it hurt like a mother.

Doi bung ;P


SF Clubs

So my NorCal girl Vy recommended NV and the Factory.

Any insights?


January 12, 2005

omg I found my old prom photos =0


I don't know what this is. My mom likes to send me weird crap and I'm in lab and don't want to find out at this moment.

this is a new sony product. I think you will like it.

link


Class

That post below was by David who is just too distracting. He is probably the reason why I almost failed my summer math class (HA) and is the reason why the professor singled me out during our software organization class (he was typing strange things to April over AIM and I started to laugh damn it damn it damn it...) =0 Felt like high school. Most professors don't even care whether you're there or not, but this one insists that you pay attention. She's a nice woman but I'm a little ADD sometimes which may be a problem in this particular case....

Lee's Sandwiches is finally open :D I got to get some ca phe sua da (I don't know the accents and I'm not even going to try) this morning which makes me OMEGA happy. I love Vietnamese iced coffee.


wet hot teens

wet hot teen action on spring break!!1one

did kit tell you aboot the girl w/turrets in our math class?

there was this blonde girl sitting in back right?

she kept coughing and saying bullshit to the professor

*coughBULLSHITcough* poo fart.

~davidael


blah

am realizing exactly how bad i am at this whole relationship thing


January 11, 2005

skeet skeet skeet!

look at this look at this look at this!

That's for you 45cent <3

Thanks for the link Steph :D


Margarita Mondays!

Got to see some of the dorm guys (plus one of the guys' friends from hs) when we met up at Acapulco for $2 margaritas (and before you say anything...I ordered mine virgin) yesterday night. The dirty one got slightly tipsy after a single margarita, yes, I do only see Peter (Singles Club president) once a quarter (the last time I saw him was at the beginning of fall quarter when he and Dave came over to see the apartment) and according to Tony I am currently a member of the Singles Club (which I'm not so sure of...?). Anyway, April drove Dave's truck back in the pouring rain because she's a good friend like that. Good seeing you guys.

Had a nice dinner w/ Aaron and April at Macaroni Grill. The stuffed mushrooms are omega good. Aaron did a good job ordering.

Sorry about my driving Apes I know that "I can't seeeeee!" is the last thing you want to hear from the driver but man is that rain a bitch or is that rain a bitch?

The sun is out this morning :) Here's hoping.

Looking forward to seeing Steph :D


January 10, 2005

Looking forward to this weekend (sorry I can't make it to your dinner Neeners drunk-dial me yeah?) when we go up to see the ducks and the cows and the bars :D As for the snowboarding I'm afraid that I may kill myself if I try to venture anywhere near a place that is not completely horizontal or at least knock out the hearing in one ear for two weeks which is what the brother did and seeing how we do many of the same stupid things (from missing our finals because we misread the time/day to throwing up after a similar amount of shots in a similar amount of time) I wouldn't be surprised if the same happened to me.

And now that I think about it, where the hell did he get his boarding clothes? Hrm. Or the money to even go. That foo doesn't work.

Brady: It's good to drink a lot of water when you start to feel sick. I remember once I was feeling really queasy so I drank like this [insert hand gesture here] from the tap in the bathroom for about five minutes and then I threw up like bleeehhhhh [insert throwing-up motions here].

Kris: Um, and what was the good part?

Crazy Berkeley kids. We should go visit him this weekend I just bought him a bunch of mixers (with his $$$) and he offered to make cocktails :D

Thanks for the coffee April dear I feel good this morning :)

*so i was an idiot and used right angle brackets instead of square ones. whatev.


January 07, 2005

Overview

Before Xmas...

Vegas-ing for Maria's 22nd (so sorry I had to leave early!), Oseibo on Sunday where we exchanged gifts, I chased someone annoying around with a camera because I had to, and got to see Leanne do the robot on stage with her kids, some last-minute features added to the MGB plus dinner with some gangstas and babes (Cambridge English!) followed by a presentation that was made by the self-appointed "king" of our new fused group (i is ninja), outlet shopping with the bf (I can't believe he can hang with me), dance lessons and xmas-treeing and TGIFriday's with Ra and Steph (I think I hurt myself), insane xmas shopping and then dinner provided by lil Skim (thanks!) and THEN my first taste of flavored soju which is one helluva lot better than sake, xmas eve from Irvine to Santa Ana to Buena Park (dinner with the family) to Rowland Heights to celebrate HoHo's 22nd (yes she is old) and then to April's with Steph for some cookies and talk (thanks for having us over!).

And then...

Saw Closer with two lovely girls then went for tea/boba twice before going to Aaron's to play foosball where we learned that April has a gambling problem and we all had to pay for it dearly, went to SD for some real gambling where I frittered away $90 which in retrospect isn't really all that much, came back only to head out to Best Buy to pick up my SATC season 6 which I brought back to my house so we could watch it straight through (Red Vines, chocolate and tea), went to Saddle Ranch w/ Steph for...Brian's brother's friend's birthday or something or other...? Well we went and by the time we got there almost everyone was already inebriated and I stayed fantastically sober for once, went to bf's the following day to chill, went to K-town the night after (after the mind-numbing meeting for the centennial history book) for dinner, drinks, karaoke, dancing and Carrow's, spent new year's eve sober at Nishi, at the bf's, and at a house party where Steve (unbeknownst to him) was photographed passed out on the couch many many times, spent new year's at Nishi and at home doing family stuff (I'm Japanese it comes with the territory) and then in Pasadena (thanks Brian although you really really didn't have to) and then at Steve's and then at D&B's where I lost the sugar game and washed my loss down with a Stella (thanks Aaron) which I drank too fast, shopped and chilled the following night with Steph before going to Aaron's where I had a couple beers and sucked at foosball (no more betting) and watched SATC and Eternal Sunshine and then headed out to Carrow's with Skim, April and Steph for appetizers and talk, took Steph to Irvine with me the following day and felt terrible because I forgot I had to work that day but yes it all turned out okay because Aaron rescued her and by the time I got back they were having a grand old time with Ciara, had dinner then came back to the apt to Taboo, dance, drink and some other stuff (Ray molested my elbows but I think I started it) and got an omega cool necklace from Maria Tortilla, hung out and chilled the following day before Steph headed home (too sad).

And then school started.

So that was my winter break. I'm amazed that I remember what I did from day to day (well actually...okay well yeah) but it was all good. I lost my card reader again so it may be a while before you see photos. But yes, thanks guys. It was omega good.


January 06, 2005

Oh lord

Got completely plastered last night and threw up. First time throwing up in 13 years. Thanks to Aaron for taking care of me by himself for two hours. He cleaned up after me and sat with me after I managed to stumble over to the bathroom where I hear I was slumped over the toilet apologizing for two hours. It felt like ten minutes to me. I think I might have fallen asleep there. I also vaguely remembered someone (which turned out to be April who was also drunk) tying back my hair. When I woke up this morning and stumbled over to the bathroom sink I discovered that my hair was in two pigtails--one towards the top of my head and one near the nape of my neck--and my bangs were pinned back with bobby pins. I looked like hell. I'm lucky they didn't take pictures.

April dear, breakups are hard. I drank excessively because I love you *muah*

Aaron, I think we're one for one. Here's hoping neither of us gets that sick again. And to Aaron and Steve sorry you had to listen to my crazy talk and I'm glad you got a kick out of my pigtail/toilet/pillow situation.

Hangover is almost gone now. Will not be drinking any amount of alcohol for a while...until our trip up north in about a week...? Plans have not been finalised (heh) yet but I hope we can make it :)


January 05, 2005

125

ICS125

Okay so I feel OMEGA nerdy for having so many pictures from a project class of all things but my team members were so awesome that I couldn't help it. Believe it or not, but there are zillions more photos (and videos) that I didn't post.

The Freezer (a.k.a. Qlub Zed)

Actually, this would be the 125 lab. Yeah all the rest of you were in there 24/7 as soon as we started with the implementations, but we'd been there since the requirements doc. Word to your mom.

Oh, one more thing. The whiteboard drawings of Franklin, Taylor, and Henry were done by Justin. He is too good.

BJs

This was right before Veteran's Day or something. At first only two of the Babes came, but then Brian (blue-eyed breezy!) came in after his bball game. Weeheee

TGIF

After finalizing (or finalising as Nikhil would write it) our application we went out to celebrate with dinner and lots of drinks at TGIFriday's. Hoa dropped her wallet somewhere while we were there, but it was mailed back to her a few days later which was damn amazing. Good times for all of us :)

Presentation

Yes, we actually did work this quarter. Yes, we actually had something to present. A+ for 45cent :D

End of Finals Week

Had one last get-together at the end of finals week, the last weekend Nik would be there before leaving for Japan and New Zealand :( Went to Olive Garden and then headed over to Skeetersen's and Bryan's omegapimp condo for some crazy times. Can you believe that they have a DDR machine in their place? WTF mate?

Oh, and here's a great video from that night that I got from the lefty. So the omegapimps have a pool table as well as a DDR machine. Now I really really suck at DDR (too many large motor skills involved perhaps?) so even though I suck at pool I decided to do that instead of humiliate myself on the DDR machine. I actually started to do a little better with the whole pool thing after I started drinking (they actually thought I was hustling them at the beginning), but after the third rum and coke my pool skills were rapidly declining, which is why Lam had to level my cue for me. Now just watch the video and keep an eye on the cue ball ;P

Pool.AVI [5.1 MB avi file]

And that's my little tribute to the group that worked on the mitochondrial genome browser (MGB) last quarter :) Too many trips out to eat and out to the pub. I had fun guys :D


PHOTOS

Okay so I have about fifty-bajillion more photos to post.

Isn't it great how we can make up numbers like fifty-bajillion and everyone still knows what that means?

Anyway, I think I'm going to start with the 45 cent/MitoB.A.B.E. photos simply because they span all of fall quarter.

Let me tell you, 125 was the best class (albeit time-consuming) but I think it's that class that made me put on the six pounds that I did over fall quarter. For those of you who labbed it with us towards the end of the quarter in the Freezer, recall if you will the image of us surrounded by our Starbucks, chips and cookies in the late hours of the night sitting on our asses programming. No wonder programmers get so fat. No wonder I gained weight. I'm still working on dropping it.

Steph left yesterday :( Class starts today :( I think I need another week.


January 04, 2005

Oh what...?

Maria: [Huntz] said I looked pretty when I threw up.

...and as if that weren't wrong in itself...

(a few minutes later)

Huntz: You guys are just jealous that I can find beauty in ugly things.


My stupid phone is not working (it took me five tries to turn it on this morning and the battery was low despite having charged all night) and I think it has what may be the crappiest UI ever when it comes to texts. It took me months to realize that I can indeed receive them and I'm still not sure how to send them.

I had not seen Elaine in three years and I got to see her three times over break. All three times she was pretty plastered.

I think I'm just a tiny bit hung over. I need to sleep :(


January 03, 2005

The End

Thank you all for a very lovely winter break. Now on to winter quarter (well, soon)...and here's hoping that 199 takes care of a project class! Yay.

I'm at work now. Pah.


January 02, 2005

There is some much-needed alone time that I haven't gotten around to this break. This afternoon seems like a good time to find some.

Did I mention that I went to San Diego last week? Went to Harrah's with my aunties and my mom. Lost $70 at the "super fun 21" tables. I think I'm just unlucky. Everyone to my right got at least two blackjacks while in the meantime I was getting 4's and 5's. One time I managed to get my total up to 21, but so did the dealer so we pushed :( Oh well.

Happy new year!


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